I have no idea why I am feeling this way, but I'm too much of a coward to speak to you about it.
I miss you. Terribly and madly. Every breath I'm taking feels like I'm grasping to it, barely reaching it.
Nothing you say makes it better and nothing I think calms my nerves.
I always new this would happen- me being scared at the wrong moment.
I'm not sure if it's fear or just the fact that I miss you every day, and even though every day we are apart brings us one day closer to the day we find each other taking our breaths away with an embrace I still want to be with you and it pains me to think that we won't be physically together, for as long as we choose to for many many years.
Every song makes me miss you more, and if it doesn't then I rapidly "next" it to one that will. I'm not happy right now, I feel like it's too easy to lose you. I feel that you will leave me if I tell you what I'm thinking. I'm thinking that once again I'll be counting your steps but this time for ever.
I want you. I love you. I need you. And although all these things are true, right now I simply need you, and once again I can't have you; not yet, not now.
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