Saturday, October 17, 2009

You should consider

All my life I've been trying to do the right thing. Even if I wanted to do something else, the analytics of my head confined every emotion of my heart and I always just let it be.

Until recently.

Little by little I've been letting myself, purposely, make mistakes. A little bit reckless here... a little stupid there...

I wonder when all of these mistakes will come back and bite me in the ass. Haha, but I'll just look back...or reread this post and laugh about it.

The bigger the failure....the wider the smile

We have all heard the proverbs, singers, songwriters, our mothers, our fathers, historians, philosophers and poets; we have heard it all. We’ve heard quotes on how to live our lives, on how we should seize the day, on what is love and how we should act upon it. We’ve been told hundreds of times on how to make the right and society-approved choice, the correct decision and how it is important to “think with the brain and not the heart”. It is impossible to pretend we haven’t been told or warned about the risks and consequences of being in a relationship, but still we choose to see for ourselves.

I could go on about the statistics of failed relationships, failed marriages, lost lovers and never-ending feuds between the best of friends, but I find no point in that. What we must understand is that within each of us lies the desire to take chances, and what better chance to take than that taken with love.

Where there is love there is a bond, and where there’s a bond you’ll find a relationship. It’s simple, really. "Whether it’s unspoken, awkward, or elementary, whether it lasts a moment or a lifetime, whether it’s between relatives or friends- it’s not usually newsworthy, but love is always there." There are no limitations or agendas for love. Whether it’s right or wrong we cannot help but feel it- and sometimes in the midst of all this loving we crash and burn.

Just as it happens in stories, it happens in real life. Friends lose each other, children lose their parents, siblings fight and never make up, the person who you least imagined disappoints you, and the most important person in your life breaks your heart. Many times, after the ordeal is over with, all we’re left saying is “I knew it” or “I should’ve listened to my mom”, followed by some tears and the creation of an evil and hostile plan to rid yourself of your new arch-enemy. But this plan only goes so far, because soon after you’re left staring at a window, smiling, and hoping for something new to come your way; something better.
And so, I conclude, that with great failure comes great hope; the bigger the tears, the wider the smile will be in the future. We have to make our own mistakes and learn our own lessons. We have to make our own decisions, even if we choose to stay right where we are, because the truth is, that failing is far better than never trying.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Confessions

In the pursuit of happiness, we find ourselves, once again, being summoned to the truth of a confession.

What's the purpose?

I have no idea. It feels good, however, I wonder if it is completely in the best of our interests.

Confessions, after all, should be kept in the heart... or should they?

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Happy is what I am

It amazes me how far I've come.

Sometimes, in the midst of things and in the twists and turns of turbulent days I forget to look around and realize how much things have changed. How much I have changed. How much I have grown.

Today as I quickly hurried to my post in the hallway, after deciding to wear white after labor day, and aqua Chuck's to work, I felt blessed and a little silly for smiling for so many reasons, and yet not a definite one.

I love my "kids" and I didn't let today go by without letting them know that.

I love that having faith in God has brought me this far... and if this is as far as I will get then so be it... I am happy.

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